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mewtwowarrior) wrote2010-11-02 11:16 pm
mewtwowarrior) wrote2010-11-02 11:16 pm
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Stuff and Portal
Today was pretty good.
We went to eat at Arby's, yay! :D Had a Beef n' Cheddar sandwich, potato cakes, and a chocolate turnover. :D The potato cakes tasted kinda funky, but everything else was good. ^_^
We got some stuff together to take to Best Buy sometime. We've got the craptop to get rid of (the CD drive died and I couldn't reinstall Windows ME after formatting it) and we might get a new hard drive for my old laptop so we can drag it places and not worry too much if something happens to it.
Grey kitty came by early this afternoon, and I spent a while outside petting it. ^_^ She was really sweet, and when I put some food out for her, she seemed a bit hungry and ate right away.
Looked out later tonight, and there was a different cat on the patio. XD It was a browny-greyey and had darker stripes. Me and it looked at each other, and then it headed to the back and sat on the fence for a bit. XD
I think NaNoWriMo is going to drive me to madness. I just can't get enough words out of Portal. D: All the levels so far are crazy short and this last one didn't even get me 1,000 words. D: The more I play, the more I'm certain that my original estimate was close to right, I think the behind the scenes stuff after level 19 takes up close to half the game's length. :| I hope I have 25,000 words by then (more would be so, so, so much better) and that I can manage 25,000 more. Or I'm gonna fall hard. I want more words, I really do. But short of padding each chapter with loads of blahblahblah that doesn't really fit in, I can't do any more, it doesn't help the story, it only makes it worse. *rage* I want the story to be the best it can be, and throwing unnecessary words around doesn't help. My goal is to write the durned thing, 50,000 words would have been nice, but it may just not be possible and that is upsetting. I don't want to fail, I don't. But I want to write this story the way it was meant to be and if I fail NaNo because I didn't add extensive fluff, then it's just going to have to be that way. *sob* I wanted 3,000 words per chapter, I can't even get 1,000 per chapter. I want to prove that I can beat NaNo and win, but Portal may be too short to accomplish that goal. If I can't get my 50,000 words, my Sister will probably never let me live it down, she already acted like she didn't think I could do it and hated my goal of making Portal a novel. *so frustrated*
I...I've got a few tricks up my sleeve that I haven't used yet to add some words to the story and depth to the game. It hasn't been time yet. I can stall and I think I've got a good bit I can use for the first flinging level. If need be, maybe I can go back to the older chapters and expand descriptions and add more. I don't know. I don't know what's to come, I can't control a blasted thing storywise and it's frustrating.
I also don't know if I'm doing a good job with writing it. I mean, I guess I'm okay at writing, but after I have a short chapter, I feel so awful about not hitting word counts that I can't judge the quality, because all I'm doing is going, "It's too shorrrrtttttt *whine*". I'm doing the best I can, I don't know if it's good enough. D:
And I'm pretty certain everybody is going to hate me after I write the Companion Cube level. Everybody loves Companion Cube and they seem to expect Chell to love it as well. But I think she doesn't care at all. It's a useful tool, and she wants out and to get her cake, so she'll toss it in the incinerator as easy as you please, with maybe a raised eyebrow at the sudden change in tone, though the Ratman Den did warn her of angst to come. She's too smart to get attached to it, it's just like the other cubes, but with hearts slapped on it and it talked about incessantly. To quote the achievement, she does what it takes to survive. And I just can't see the character I'm building to be easily seduced by a 3-foot tall metal cube with hearts. I like Companion Cube. I have my Companion Cube plushie close to me when I'm writing this story, it's next-ish to me now. But Chell is a different person, and the real Companion Cube is huge. *sigh* I just don't want to disappoint people or let them down.
Also, I feel like the Xzibit meme. I'm playing Portal and taking screenshots, then writing and looking at the screenshots, and playing the level again to see stuff I missed or how things sound. I am playing Portal twice in one go. XD Yo dawg, I heard you liked Portal, so now you can play Portal while you play Portal. *headdesk*
I love the game, I really do, it's a lot of fun to play. To write it is a different story. Ha ha, pun not intended.
I was thinking about trying to write another chapter, but I think I'm just going to RP or do something fun, because this stupid thing is so frustrating. Arrrrr.
Watching my nanowrimo tag this month will probably a window in watching an already crazy person go more insane. XD
Wrote 2 terribly short chapters tonight.
Chapter 3
Chapterfail 4
Looking forward to going to convention on Friday, hopefully it'll let me chill and get my mind off of the failboat I'm cruising at full speed on. *toot toot*
We went to eat at Arby's, yay! :D Had a Beef n' Cheddar sandwich, potato cakes, and a chocolate turnover. :D The potato cakes tasted kinda funky, but everything else was good. ^_^
We got some stuff together to take to Best Buy sometime. We've got the craptop to get rid of (the CD drive died and I couldn't reinstall Windows ME after formatting it) and we might get a new hard drive for my old laptop so we can drag it places and not worry too much if something happens to it.
Grey kitty came by early this afternoon, and I spent a while outside petting it. ^_^ She was really sweet, and when I put some food out for her, she seemed a bit hungry and ate right away.
Looked out later tonight, and there was a different cat on the patio. XD It was a browny-greyey and had darker stripes. Me and it looked at each other, and then it headed to the back and sat on the fence for a bit. XD
I think NaNoWriMo is going to drive me to madness. I just can't get enough words out of Portal. D: All the levels so far are crazy short and this last one didn't even get me 1,000 words. D: The more I play, the more I'm certain that my original estimate was close to right, I think the behind the scenes stuff after level 19 takes up close to half the game's length. :| I hope I have 25,000 words by then (more would be so, so, so much better) and that I can manage 25,000 more. Or I'm gonna fall hard. I want more words, I really do. But short of padding each chapter with loads of blahblahblah that doesn't really fit in, I can't do any more, it doesn't help the story, it only makes it worse. *rage* I want the story to be the best it can be, and throwing unnecessary words around doesn't help. My goal is to write the durned thing, 50,000 words would have been nice, but it may just not be possible and that is upsetting. I don't want to fail, I don't. But I want to write this story the way it was meant to be and if I fail NaNo because I didn't add extensive fluff, then it's just going to have to be that way. *sob* I wanted 3,000 words per chapter, I can't even get 1,000 per chapter. I want to prove that I can beat NaNo and win, but Portal may be too short to accomplish that goal. If I can't get my 50,000 words, my Sister will probably never let me live it down, she already acted like she didn't think I could do it and hated my goal of making Portal a novel. *so frustrated*
I...I've got a few tricks up my sleeve that I haven't used yet to add some words to the story and depth to the game. It hasn't been time yet. I can stall and I think I've got a good bit I can use for the first flinging level. If need be, maybe I can go back to the older chapters and expand descriptions and add more. I don't know. I don't know what's to come, I can't control a blasted thing storywise and it's frustrating.
I also don't know if I'm doing a good job with writing it. I mean, I guess I'm okay at writing, but after I have a short chapter, I feel so awful about not hitting word counts that I can't judge the quality, because all I'm doing is going, "It's too shorrrrtttttt *whine*". I'm doing the best I can, I don't know if it's good enough. D:
And I'm pretty certain everybody is going to hate me after I write the Companion Cube level. Everybody loves Companion Cube and they seem to expect Chell to love it as well. But I think she doesn't care at all. It's a useful tool, and she wants out and to get her cake, so she'll toss it in the incinerator as easy as you please, with maybe a raised eyebrow at the sudden change in tone, though the Ratman Den did warn her of angst to come. She's too smart to get attached to it, it's just like the other cubes, but with hearts slapped on it and it talked about incessantly. To quote the achievement, she does what it takes to survive. And I just can't see the character I'm building to be easily seduced by a 3-foot tall metal cube with hearts. I like Companion Cube. I have my Companion Cube plushie close to me when I'm writing this story, it's next-ish to me now. But Chell is a different person, and the real Companion Cube is huge. *sigh* I just don't want to disappoint people or let them down.
Also, I feel like the Xzibit meme. I'm playing Portal and taking screenshots, then writing and looking at the screenshots, and playing the level again to see stuff I missed or how things sound. I am playing Portal twice in one go. XD Yo dawg, I heard you liked Portal, so now you can play Portal while you play Portal. *headdesk*
I love the game, I really do, it's a lot of fun to play. To write it is a different story. Ha ha, pun not intended.
I was thinking about trying to write another chapter, but I think I'm just going to RP or do something fun, because this stupid thing is so frustrating. Arrrrr.
Watching my nanowrimo tag this month will probably a window in watching an already crazy person go more insane. XD
Wrote 2 terribly short chapters tonight.
Chapter 3
Chapter
Looking forward to going to convention on Friday, hopefully it'll let me chill and get my mind off of the failboat I'm cruising at full speed on. *toot toot*