*hugs* It was horrible...it wasn't exactly realistic because it didn't make much sense, but the feelings were real, almost like it really happened even though I KNOW it didn't, and then I'm fearing that it might really happen and it just snowballs from there.

It doesn't help that yesterday was Memaw's birthday and I sort of associate hers and Shannon's deaths because they both quickly died from mysterious and horrible illnesses and so I'm just a mess.